Wednesday, February 23, 2005
i'v waited all my life to cross tis linetill the onli thing tt's truen i will nt hideits tym to tryanything to b w uall my life i'v waitedtis is t.r.u.ei tink im beta off lyk ttboth our personalities clashes tts 4surei love buddy vick tonsS man!she made me realise soooooo many thingsl.o.v.e is nt all abt possessioni hav a complex hrt nowfeeling alil relief..sadness..happiness..sournesseverything's mixed tgthahz its funny how tings wld turn out lk tti tot i wld b half deadbut now i realise tts all childish actsseeing her happier off is definitely gonna put a smile on my face.thou occassionally the loooser cornetto pops into my headits juz my ego probably=Ppim learning to let go=)n tk life easily agn.yes i mentioned agn=)it was aft sum incident tt made me turned -ven.o.w loving her is all i needa botherno matter wat she do..wat she becum...hu holds her handi'll still love herwe may becum very gd frens tts wat li hua thinksbut i nid tymto gt use to the sudden chng in environmenti admit my life has a big hole to patch up now tt she's gonebut im sure i'll b fine soonno use pursuing a r/s tts certain of its probsi cnt giv wat she nids n i cn nvr i guessso trying further will mk the r/s more soury nt forgo the hurt n pain n juz rem all the beautiful memoriesif the old nvr goes..the new nvr cums=)i care 4u baby.u noe tt.=)let me b there 4u evertym u nid sum1let me b there everytym u feel u'r gonna fall let me b there whn sum1 bullies ulet me b part of those beautiful memories den the sadlet me b the 1tt cn realli protect u.*hugsget over me bcuz u'll b beta off.u noe tt.i juz wan the b.e.s.t 4u.
2/23/2005 03:35:00 AM
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Monday, February 21, 2005
it has ended.
i've nth more to sae nor do.
dun blame me for being nasty but i fucking hate him.
den agn it tks 2hands to clap.
i rest my case.
ytd's been crap thnx buddy(li hua) 4being there
i'v onli gt myself 2blame.
thnx 4tt wonderful journey baby.
u noe i'll always b ard.
2/21/2005 08:14:00 PM
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Friday, February 18, 2005
forcing my way thru aint gonna benefiti wanna continue tryingbut afterall its nt all up to mejuz lyk wat vick saidonce the hrt chnges..its hard to turn bcif we were strong n firmtis wldnt happen at allbut i think tis is the best of my 2other r/sim happywe tried to open up n understandat least we tried our besti dun blame u babyas much as i wanna hold onto uwat has to happen WILL happenits juz sooner or laterits juz all part of god's plani totally understand how u feelneither of us feel gd nowi feel so much anger at the tot of himbut den agn it tks 2hands to clapim feeling wat i felt b4 agncountless drms abt u now babynitemares occasionallyat the end.. b it a gd or bad ansthe bad mite do both of us gd tooof coz the hurt will b present but we always learn frm those falls izzitnt it?=)but if its da gd...of coz it'll b da bestwe'll continue to progress=Das for nowi'll learn to trustin mid way now i suppose=)thankew baby for being truthful n tell me exactly wat u'r feelingi'll b waiting 4ur ans watever it takes i'll b there 4urem tis....i wan u to NOT regret after deciding AND b happier den b4u'v gotta b selfish n think 4urselffor onli u urself cn protect the fragile udun b soft hrted=)pls allow me to sae tisi miss u
2/18/2005 04:43:00 AM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
the fear is unbearable
whnever it hits my head
tears start welling up
im juz a nodge slightly higher den the last setback
afterall i guess the trust is there
or the news wun b sucha grt shock n disppointment to me.
now everything may seem juz too late
2/15/2005 10:53:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
nana: thnx girl...
u'r soo swt...im fine dun u worry
meet up soon coz i miss u toooo!
=))
tis sounds crazy
but im still gonna sae it
i feel noooooooo sense of security
i wanna c u n b w u but at the same tym m afraid of getting hurt
im selfish
tt's exactly wat im becuming
i cn tk it noooooooooooooooo moreeeeeee! =(
sumtyms i feel lk giving up trying
i feel bad treating u lk tt
u deserve sum1 beta
definitely.
juz whn will everything chng 4da beta
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
u'll nvr understand.
2/09/2005 08:00:00 PM
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i'll always remember that beautiful smile
i thought i saw a smile so familiar and warm that day
but only for awhile...
and im left alone in the crowd.
thou u'r gone,
im glad to have those memories of you and i kept deep inside me
the closeness we shared..
the times you put me to bed
the way u always cheer me up
those silly faces u allowed me to make on your face when im bored
i'll remember every part of it.
With all that,
im sure i'll be able to walk outtve that crowd n smile again.