Thursday, March 31, 2005
o well...work was fine 2daei was so nice as to "pick" huixin after work 2daehaha *boast*actually i wanna go p.s too lah.=)) lucky din stay at store n wait cn...i'll rotvick's fren came to visitwatts's baby was heresheesh...n wat?!? watts is NT gng tanning due 2trudi's LAST min's meetinDAMN!!!! vick nt gng oso...think she will feel outta place w/o watts tts y=(((((((((oMY! the most interesting news i'v hrd 2dae!!!!!sara's nt gng tanning w us..n y!???!!bcuz she dun wan us to c her w/o make up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!omygod! i juz laffed my guts out sia!n tt tym da reason she dun wan stay over at chalet bcuz??!she dun wanna havta tk out her mk up!!!!!!i cnt gt tt tot off my mind all da way till p.si still cnt stop feelin lk wanting to laff!!!!!she's juz our bimbo man!!!*u lousy ger!!* hahahahHEART YOU 4ur silliness!! =Pptmr's shift sounds goodie boyits anqi = openerden huixin = 2nd partnerden yvonne = 3rd partnerhahahha wheeeeetang guo's being sucha swtie 2swop w me her shift on sundae man=)) i'v gt an impt missionso cnt help it..thnx babe!=))she's flying off mann i cnt c her off*sighs*we'll juz tk tis gd 2weeks or 3 or 4?...to 4get abt everythingok 4get sounds toughhow abt let go?i'll miss da shit outta herden agn...learning to let go n move on brgs me 2a further part in life=)) i'll becum more mature*i like*=) she'll find her true happiness tooim juz wasting her tymlet go...dun bother n njoy a big gd tym there.i'll miss you.
3/31/2005 06:38:00 AM
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
wheee..2dae gng watch movie w huixin n mayb vickhaha ytd was crazy mannmy working partners r bc frm atts man!miss them all esp huixin!wahaha she damn funny..we go do sampling tgtden gt cheekos disturb her n she TOTALLY biang them cn!omy! they deserve it aniwaemuahahah she's 1of a kind sia! (girl u rock)haha so many ppl came ytd 2visit...so happy!!=)) 1st -> doreen n weiting =DD2nd-> cheryl n amanda3rd->nana..sally n peeps4th-> cheryl n guys agn =))im soo entertained but whn nite falls...the crowds r gone..no slams no sales...no fun =/cnt wait 4the girls outting nxt monwheeeeeeeee anqi n i r goddamn excited!! hahahalets juz pray tt tt dae will hav sun manhahah or else it'll juz b a plain outting w no tanning =Xeven our boss (wattsy) is gng! wheeetgt w vick n i...we mk 3....erm...wateverhaha bikini babes + 3hunks = perfect outting =PpPpim sooo gonna rot at hm agn 2dae=// other den movies nth's on my to-do listlalalalanic nana carol....even if u'r nt reading tisi hope everything will turn out finei hav faith in u guysits nt sucha big porb afterallits all abt opening up...*hugs*its gone i noebut wat i hav 4u deep inside will stay a part of mei wan soo much 4u to becum how u used to bnt onli bcuz THEN we cn b bc tgtthe reason's oso 4u 2b a gd n nice girlwhich part of smoking tells u its gd mann which part of the grp of ppl(.L.oosers) tells u they'r gd company?u smoke bcuz they do..u becuz more vulgar bcuz they rthink 4urself plstt's da core reason i hate u 2mix w themi c tt sth in u which i believe u cn bcum a beta personi dun wanna giv up tryingbut at the end of da dae if im trying n u'r ntwe cnt put da pieces tgt u cu'll still b hu u r nowi did it once...i dun c y u cnt 4another tymn tis tym pls mk it 4everu'r doing all these 4urself nt 4anyone AT ALLits been so long n nth's chngingbut i aint givin up...i'll not...cnt sae nvr...i'll nvr noe wat will happen nxt tymevery puff u tk tks away frm u how many goddamn hrs of ur lifespanFOR DA LAST TYMMMMMMTHINK THINK THINK 4URSELF!!!!o well...i'll always b here 4u anytym u need me*Hugs*get over me cuz i noe there'll b beta guys out there 4UtC pls.-re-edited- 11.00am[yawnnnnnn]im soo emo nowsuddenly so sadhaha an jing is sucha beautiful song izzitnt it=)i miss youno yvonne..rem tt love aint all abt possession*nodsyvonne = constantly remindedmuahhaa o boy...im gng bonkersget me outve da hse mann!!
3/29/2005 06:05:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
i had fun ytd(thou it was tough on karen)1st met up w her 2go tP do appealingden went bc hm shower chnged n came out agnhahmet up w karen 1st den jy....den stefhahdamn funny we drank nt much but gt kinda highjY n i 4all i noe kpt toking rubbishbut we'r v sober juz a lil dizzythe walk to the river made me feel alil betahah jY even claims she saw a shooting star cn!muahahah!den its emo tymmuahaha aft tt jason camewe walked to citylink n realise tt the doors r lockedhahden walked all the way to raffles cityn took cabthey were soo swt to hav sent me hm la..*thnx karen*thnx jieyingmuahao well all i knew was tt i miss her sooooo much the min i had silent tym alone*i love YOU*its no point hanging on to the pastthe fate tt's brought btw u 2 is overlearn frm the mistakes n move onit takes 2hands to clapletting go issitnt sucha bad thing afteralllove aint possessionremind urself tt=))n u'll gt over quicklysoon another mr charming will cum into ur lifewe'll always b here 4u girl*HUGS*
3/22/2005 06:29:00 PM
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
ytd was a gd daewoke up w a gd 11hrs of slp=))huixin was being so swt to acc me b4 wkcoz i was soooo rotten at hm ready!den it was work at 5=))candy(tang guo) n angela+ adrian working w me!!fun fun fun!hahz we(tang guo n i) had a ice war initially...but tang guo started disturbing me w whip cream=XXhahaz! even adrian played along cn!muahaha he even threatened to pour the WHLE bottle of whip on me!=XX stupid adrianas usual angela the serious wan juz continued on w her work.=))n guess wat...jieying came dwn to visit me! =DDshe's still as blur as ever...nt very shy already thou=)) went w her to gt her foto printerhahaha! she's damn cartoon!the way she tok to her dad is damn funny!=Pp *ayh girl...u'r gettin tooo skinny lah!pls eat moreeee! =)) n dun u worry bout anything kjuz live each dae as it goesu'll nvr noe things mite chng 4the beta=)) anything n i'll b H.E.R.En yes did i mention?anqi came dwn tooshe WAS supposed to acc me b4 work but fell aslphaha!she look gd mann yes im finally saeing she looks gdhaha! w her pink speg n her eye brows done neatly n.o.w=// =Pp she look soo much beta..mayb her rebonded hair plays a parthah *nudgekp it up girl! ;)tt's all 4the niteactually.....its nt very entertaining at all*huro well....=Pp*hey girl...if u'r reading tispls noe tt im realli realli soreei din mean to liei noe watever reasons i giv u now issitnt gonna helpbut pls do 4giv mecoz i promise im nvr ever gonna do it to u agn!tis shall b the first n da last.im realli realli soree. i miss u.**sumthings r gone n will nvr cum bctis is how our r/s is in nowi realli cn c tt u'r putting in alot of effort to chng 4mebut in actual fact...its too lateim too tiredim soree babylove aint possessionb urself agn n giv upi believe u cn move on. =))u dun wan a broken r/s too rem?tk gRt cR babyu noe i'll always b herebut 4now i'll juz leave u alone n giv u all the tym u nidim so so soreepls let me love *u frm afar.
3/19/2005 06:14:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
life is good
but DAMN!
im nt included! y y y!!!!
3/15/2005 07:37:00 PM
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
ytd was gd gd gd fun!=)) went 2indoor stadium 4svc w karenhahaz miss her sooo much after sooooo long nt meetin up!!!svc was gd man..thou its soo early the emotions were grtalready frm the start tears were already at the bc of my eyesn juz whn the preaching stopped..tears juz flowed dwn lk nobody's businessval n karen even prayed 4me(thou i din understand the tongue)it was realli soo swt of themsooo embarassing to hav let them c me lk tt!!! muaha! =Xbut val assured tt i shldnt b feeling paiseh=Pp*hugs*saw huixin at svc toowent suntec w her after tto my!freakin crowded cn! hahaended up eating in foodcourther frens n her r juz crappy manmade me laff soo hard in the bushahaz nice meeting them thou =))den we realise tt anqi n angela were at bugisso we went over n meet themwheeeeeefun rite? =Pphahahaz anqi did her hair! she look sooo diff!lk sum japster =Xden 4of us rush dwn in cab to store 4presentationswe were freaking latedamn funny in cabshant elaborate here thou=Pp *nudge anqistore meeting was kinda dreadful manended abt 8+ den we decided to go dinner tgtmuahaha 14-15 of us cn!lk sum store outtingdamn fun lahzby the tym we gt to fisherman village already bcame supper cn=// haha coz we'r bz taking fotos everywhr we gomuahaha*yums supper was gdonli tt the atmosphere's a lil too much to reminise=/after supper still go bc store c them do closing sia1st tym closing the store soo many ppl cn!hahahazvic n huixin juz damn crap lamuahhah o yah! esp candy!she's laffing at everythingher laffter damn cute cn!!! =Dytd lk she drunk lk tt cnkp toking rubbish onli.. kekei love them all soo much!=DDjieying: thou u mite nt c tis...u juz havta noe tt i'll always b here 4ui hate to c the mess u r in now =XXrem nxt tues ah!! =DD i still think u'll gt knock out 1st! =Pp muahaha lihua: i'll b here!!!! =)) u noe tt!! tmr tmr!!!!! our date! =D n pls sent me hm aft tt i dun wanna bang another crazy man dwnhahaha!*wo de sheng huo guo de heng hao..ni ne?dan wo hai hao xiang ni....=( *ni yi jing yuan yuan li kaiwo ye hui man man zhou kaiwo hui xue ze fang qi niying wei wo tai ai ni
3/13/2005 10:20:00 PM
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Friday, March 11, 2005
nth's gonna b da same anymoreim chnging too i admitim too tiredu'r abt to giv up too i cn cthere goes another grt treasuredwe cn nvr tok it out..it gets worst insteadim juz pretendingu r toowe'll brk dwn 1daemovies everynite kps me frm silly totsmeeting up w them kps u frm thinkin too i supposebut it juz seems to mk everything worsti rejected her agnif u din realise both of them r TOTALLY diff!i DUN DUN DUN lk her!n i went out w her(them) was becuz i was tooo boredim feeling bad abt those rejections but im nv gonna giv in!i'll nvr do wat i dun wan others to do unto meif u realli treasure tis u wun b doin wat u didu WILL mk me feel secure w all means n wayit tks 2hands to clapmy hand is abt to die awayi hope u'll treasure me.i'll nvr wanna turn bc tym.it hurts too much.im still holdin on now becuz i dun wanna regreteven if its tt lil bit of energyeven if tt lil hope i pin is far toooooo smalli wanna use it all upi mite nt find another lk uden agn ppl mite sae i'll find sum1 beta n gt over everything4now...i truely think u'r my grtest treasure.im soree if tis entry was kinda offendingi hav no idea wat im doin everydae anymorent a single care in anything anymorei miss u n it cnt gt grter anymoreperiod.
3/11/2005 03:41:00 AM
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Monday, March 07, 2005
tis is nt the beginning neither is it the endi love u i love u i love uyes i do i do i dobut sumhow.....i feel lk i'v no more energy to run the racefeel lk giving uptis izzint happinessr u sure u'r happy w me noeing tt......??im half certain of wat decision im gonna mk nxti need u soooo much hoping so much tt everything will b bc the way it wasbut nth seem to chngin fact i dun think u'r the same too anymorei try n i try n i'll tryeverynite juz shutting any further tots n turn to bedeverydae juz finding rubbish to do to occupy myselfi noe we'r nt suppose to b tis wayu'r juz sooo weird latelyseems lk u'r keeping sth frm meseems lk we'r nt as close anymorewe'r juz superficialargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!pls tell me e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g how u feel> over the edge_________________________the case still goes on...
3/07/2005 06:10:00 PM
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
i feel soo bad.cheryl's juz avoiding me now=//o well....im working 6daes in a wk!!shagged manbut meanwhle im beta all over agn=Dwe'r bc tgtnt sure if i made the rite choiceas theres the fear of it repeating all over agnthen agn..if i were to follow my hrttis is exactly wat i shld doi need her.tym will tell it all i believebaby DUN think tt its outta sympathy tt i went bci'v wanted it bc soo badly all these whleits juz the barrier of fear tt's existingthe feelings nvr did fadent even whn we'r aparttell me if u dun lk wat the guy is doing to ui'll do wat is neededbut if u'r fine w it..im nt gonna interferenow u noe y i din sae anything to him ytdi dun wan u to get hurtwatever he's doin n saeing is juz mking u feel lk shitits up to u to protect urselfi'll b here 4uu noe i cnt do w/o u ever agnn if ever tt dae cums i hav no idea how to face u anymorei wanna giv u everything i cn nowi wanna mk u new memories so the old cn goi wanna giv u all tt security u needi wanna spend the maximum tym w ui wanna giv u all the trust tt i havi juz wanna love u lk i always dotrust me.i do.sumthings leave whn sumthings cumi cnt hav both the gd world*u noe wat im toking abtits diff btw us nowi hope u'll respect my decisioni'll always b there n i noe u'll do too*hugs* pls stay w me 4life! =)u'r my ms important. =))i love u!
3/05/2005 08:02:00 PM
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
now everything r.e.a.l.l.y is overcnt believe tts the ans i gavewanting her sooo much n yet...it hurts but if it happens nowi dun c y it wun agn in futurei was confused but now i clove aint all abt possessionslove IS selfishone of the reasons 4my ans is becuz i dun wanna b hurt agn(now u c y love is selfish?)as much as i wanna brg u happinesstis is all i cn givnow u gave me tis ans is becuz u miss everything we hadbut knowing now tt our personalities clashes results to many doubts..the same prob WILL arise agnbut i dun think u ever did realise n wanted to accept the facti dunno if wat i did was ritedeep dwn im juz dying to hold u titebut deeper dwn im so so afriad.quests pop outta my head very often since u leftdoubts abt how u felt 4men how u realli assured me in da pasti dunno wat to believe n wat nt tofrm my point of viewkissing another whn u hav sum1 else in ur head mks NO sense AT ALLdun u feel tt its sumhow wrongnt until u realli settle in?i feel sooooo lk a foolim so serious abt u n yet....we hav diff opinionsi guess 4u love is juz abt feeling for the otherbut 4me i guess love is having juggling all factors n if @ any point of tymwe fall apart n shld overcum n acceptden onli we cn move on furthercommitment is wat i seekbut if everything's lk tt now...n we aren't understanding one another... the prob will STILL b therewe STILL will flip in tym to cumnoeing tt tis is nt the rite companionwe shld both move onwats meant to b will bif we still hav feelings in f.u.t.u.r.e n both u n i aint giving upden we'll prolly hav a beta route aheadi wish u the best babyi'll always b here for u.im soree to havta do tis to uokie enuff of thoselemme sae sth dumb tt happened 2daecheryl n buddies came agnn juz nice whn they were leaving they hadda ask if i was having brkin actual fact yesn they offered to walk me to buy lunchamanda: ayh so u think cheryl pretty nt?me: uh..ok la y?amanda: ok..so is she nice?me: i dunno her well at allamanda: alrite..actually she wanna noe if u n ur ex patched already?me: eh..no we dinamanda: okie since u'r so direct ...i'll b direct toome: er...ok..........amanda: since u'r nt att...giv her a try lah? me: ????? she's nt crk is she?amanda: she cn b ....(to cheryl) yvonne gt sth to tell u!*silencethe conversation stopsim speechlessi hav totally no chemistry w her 4christ sake?!?!n outta da blue ask me try her out?!?:Xweird...very weirdn im kinda taken bc frm these "outgoing" girls*sheesh thou i tot cheryl's pretty=Ppn they juz came n came to starbucks lk nobody's business n gt vick kinda madmuaha!its kinda scary whn things turn out lk tt=Ppanyhow...im here 2conclude to those hu hav no confidence in mett........i hav noooooooo feelings nor any shit for cheryleven if we hang out tgtwe'r JUST frensmy hrt already has tt special sum1.period.allow me 2b there 4u*hugs
3/03/2005 04:29:00 AM
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i'll always remember that beautiful smile
i thought i saw a smile so familiar and warm that day
but only for awhile...
and im left alone in the crowd.
thou u'r gone,
im glad to have those memories of you and i kept deep inside me
the closeness we shared..
the times you put me to bed
the way u always cheer me up
those silly faces u allowed me to make on your face when im bored
i'll remember every part of it.
With all that,
im sure i'll be able to walk outtve that crowd n smile again.
