Tuesday, June 28, 2005
used to hav tis column on our blackboard back in sec sche special column coled " daily thoughts"(if i dun rem wrongly. laughs)2/4 or 4/4 i cnt rem toor juz a buncha lazy kids...so we onli write a "thought" n it seems lyk we nvr fail to hav da same thought everydaelaughsn its always" do unto others wat u want others to do unto you."tot it was crap back thenalways laughing at it w my classmatesbut unknowingly..juz tt lil sentence taught me so muchyes i actually DID sth frm it.smiles.n it came in useful in my life.babyi treasure every bit of you
6/28/2005 08:17:00 AM
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Monday, June 20, 2005
i c light in youi really dofinallyim so glad.every1's hard work was paid offit will take time 4it to b completely gone thoupls b patient dun force it awayfor it'll come back somedaylet it fade insteadmeanwhle we'll all stand by u.dun u worryu hav many many pilars to rely on.=)) huggs.n many many cups of ice cream to cheer u up.;)tis is crazywork's nt very overloadingbut y m i feeling so stressed up?its auditons...probably. sigh.n projs.test.term test.ok tt's alot to handle alreadyfuck man.bball session tmr.great. need a gd sweat out session.i hope we'r not drifting apartboth too pre-occupied w our own stuffs.i'll b here 4u anytym thou swthrt.promise.loves.[[depressed n sad]]dunno y.
wish u'r here.
u feel so far away.
6/20/2005 06:01:00 AM
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
i finally had my haircut!
done w benjamin
=)) laughs
he aint no gay anymore
=Pp woops
hahaha
n im sooo happy tt gay(dickson his name is)
cut 4me my hair agn!
wheee..laughs.
its similar juz tt i wanna kp da length of my hair
initially i tot he's sucha turn off
but after 2dae
i think he's realli attractive
ben almost fainted
laughsvery very attractive indeed=))o well...2dae's baby's first dae of workrealli hope she wun b so tired after ttn it wun mess up her studies.msg a whle load of ppl to ask 2giv tution tobut replies i get r juz "get bc to u soon"sigh.my dae was boringwent bugis onli to gt a haircut n stayed hm da whle daesuppose to studybut im juz slacking ardsigh. hav no mood 4anythingall i can think of is to buck up on joggingsighits driving me nuts.laughstheres many things i wish to ask but its onli gng to brg the amt of distrust furtheri shall keep it tis wayi noe i can trust uim juz afriadsoree 4da tyms i becum too protectivei juz dun wanna loose u.
6/19/2005 04:11:00 AM
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
2dae's sucha grt dae
=)))
*bounce
i cnt believe im bc at da court agn
THE BASKETBALL COURT IMA TOKIN BOUT HERE!!!
=DDD
*bounce bounce
felt realli great
after tt was baby's hse i headed to
=)) she fixed me lunch
i felt lyk a contented lil kid
a kid sooo loved.
soo cared for
sooo pampered
it feels great
i love her to bits.
=)))
hung ard till bout 5 den im off to east coast w fam
haha
we cycled n pooled n bowled...
cool huh
haha so happy 2dae
=))
thou ma face's sufferin frm a lil burn
=Pp
i feel gd...
lalalala
=))
i hope tmr will turn out gd too
thou i'll b stuck hm due 2piano at 4
=((
haha o well....
im stilll soooooooooo stressed up bout da audition!
=((
gotta buck up yvonne
sigh.
yes buck up very very much
laughs
wish me luck.
6/18/2005 07:28:00 AM
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Friday, June 17, 2005
trng todae's realli funn!! =DDbut runs was badslow jogs but longggg disti lagged lyk hellblah blah!! ima piece of shit whn it cums to running!!!shittttttttttt!!!!AND DB'S GONNA HAV AN AUDITIONcoz they cnt accomodate to so many pplsighyes im stressedrealli realli stressarghhhhhhn the audition's aft term test i thinkfocus focus focus now mann!!sheesh! dunno panickin 4wat now sialaughspretty fang jie was there todaeshe ran w me. =))bet *ahem's gonna b so jealousahahaho wellmy main objective to bloggin 2dae is coz im realli sooo stressed outn baby was being realli "nice"to hav "encouraged" me.thnx huh....blah blah!! =((gng play bball tmryawn turning in soongotta get up early.=((
6/17/2005 08:34:00 AM
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Monday, June 13, 2005
wheeeee~im seriously soo happy nowadaesrealli realli...=)) no regrets to ma decisionAT ALL. =DDit feels lyk we'r REALLI starting all over agni hope u'r juz as happy as i mim no longer depressedsad nor annoyedinfact i suppose im trustin u all over agnHUGSi realli hope we can feel lyk tt 4a very very very long tym*jumpsim realli sooo happyeven tt goldfish cnt turn me off as much as b4im nt realli v bothered already=))u'r wats most important.ms tay: im realli soreei juz hope i can tell u how i realli feel abt u.tt's how i open up to ma close frens juz lyk i treated u lyk onent tt i dislike u bout tis nor tti juz wanna tell u how i feelno pun intendedhope u'll understand.prolly i dun understand u well enuffin tym to cum i will alrite. soree.we'll still b complaining to each other if anything happens=Pp u'r still my gd buddy. yes?*hugsim truely very happy now guys
no masks no fuss
no lies no tries
its confirmed!!!
im realli very very happy.
=)) its been quite awhle since i'v felt lyk tt.
she's e one.
=)
6/13/2005 07:06:00 AM
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
ytd was greatdragged jo to acc me watch e matchyiling was there 2surprise XPY tooLOL so cute da both of themn guess wat?!?!??WE WONNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!gt 1ST outtve da other 2boats!!!!!!LALALALALAL!soooo happy 4thembaby ytd was greatif onli tym stopped whr we were ytdim juz soo afriad in daes to cumytd wld juz b goneu realli mk me smile sweetheartdespite da few hrs i njoyed ur company afterall.=))thank you so much.loves.
6/11/2005 09:02:00 PM
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Friday, June 10, 2005
trngs r chnged to wed n fridaes 4da tym beingsigh which means i'v gt many hrs to kill b4 trng 4both daes!!!todae's was fun!!!=)) haha runs as usualden it was pool trngs!funn mann!gt splashed lyk mad...laughswas da coach's command to do so!blah!!hahaha den it rained but we still continued=)) wayyyy funn mannntmr's their competionI WISH THEM LUCK MANN!siew mai is rowing!lol...chilli sao isn't thou.dunno y.she's sucha great rower.. i guessbut no1 can acc me tmr!mite end up nt gng...boring...laughsim thinkin too muchn its during trng tt i let my mind off to wanderhow can i mann!!o well...im pushing it all awaycoz i juz so wanna b there 4hern let anything bad happen to her ever agn.hopefully it wun cum bc n affect me!blahz!i love you baby.u'r all wat it takes.=)im so soree i'v disappointed ui noe u'll understand.hugs.loves
6/10/2005 08:32:00 AM
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
yes yes! trngs agn tmr!!*grinz...i'v found my motivator...though im still sufferin frm realli bad shoulder aches.LOL she's tall tann n has short hair.sumwhat has tis realli cool look on her face.but whn she speaks to us..she's realli swt.=) realli cool whn rowing too!lol..swt nicole acc me to walk pass da reservoir 2daesaw them rowing but din spot herlaughs.omann dun gt it wrong.she's juz earned great admiration frm me! =DDlookin 4ward to trng tmr....it'll b beta if she turns upLOL =Ppytd's trng was funndid rowing 4quite awhlen our whatever u col tt leader standing infront is gorgeous too balls!york feng's crazy over herLOL bumped into her 2dae at schjuz smiled n 'eh' at each otherok bc to trng.we did circuit trngs too..ok tt part was still oktill whn im all tiredthey asked to run 4rounds ard da stadium!!!=(( she ran w us thou*smile smiletmr wld b pool trng.cool...gosh me in tights???*shiversguess it'll b 'fun'w canoe polo...n swimmers sharing da pool w usi'll b of grt disgracement to DB sia!o well....i cnt care lessMUAHA!n my o my!!i did a circuit board up w weiting todae!!!n we succeeded!!!our 1st tym understanding da whle class!!!im freakin happy mann!!!! *GRINZthese 2daes hav been 2 realli LONG daes manntoo many things happenedi at helpless endsif onli i can do sth bout itim always here baby.pls let me protect u. HUGS
6/09/2005 06:10:00 AM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
cnt wait.tmr's trng agn=)) its rowing at da reservoir!!simply love tt!laughsbut i've gt a freakin 4-5hrs to kill tmrsch ends at 1 or mayb earlier den its trng at onli 5.20!!!cheryl's dating me!!laughs after soo longthou im nt realli comfy w hershe can entertain mecoz she aint feelin gd toocool we cn play pool tgt maybn conn! ice cream realli mks u feel beta mann!haha now i noe y u kp indulging urself in thosebanana ones esp.laughs...im lovin it mannthose trngs will prolly juz go down da drain.laughsi care no shit please when u'r with her.im sooo avoiding to gt into ur frensterfuckin fugly sight.laughs. n im doin it right mann! =)so proud of myselfgrt job yvonne.
6/07/2005 06:21:00 AM
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Monday, June 06, 2005
many things happened todaetoo much 4me to take infilled w exciting emotions...laughsDISAPPOINTMENT..anger..sadness..shocked..n even more disappointmentSyes agn im stuck w wat i wanna blogoki shant juz beat ard da bushim givin up.tts finalnt even chances 4reflectionsnic asked me to choose to fight or to 4geti chose to 4get n get overi hav to...ur heart aint mine anymoreno use hangin onits too suddene news of u 2 juz hit me real hard tt i realli shld giv upits a wonder how everything chngedin merely nt even a MONTH!my hopes were juz all crushed lyk tt at starbucksi realli shld gt gng n fuck off far away.i gt nth more to saelet alone gettin over...u already developed feelings 4heri feel lyk a foolim juz too shocked..things turned out lyk ttyes i miss her badly n still love her deeplybut all these juz hadda cum all too soonwell.....i'v juz gotta accept tisdun tell me u miss me n send me empty hopes agndin wan u to leave me alone becuz i realli still do love utis IS da last tym im gonna tell u.do u even bother.sigh.yes but now pls do leave me alone i hate e fugly sight of both of umakes me feel sick insideBIG TYMi hold no more hopesits juz bout gettin up agnbut den agn....i wan u to noe tt at the end of da daeafter all those nasty wordsi'll still b there by ur sideif anything goes wrong...dun worry....=))coz u'll still hav ur glittery partner.hugs
6/06/2005 07:54:00 AM
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
my routine of boringness is back.laughs. o well...i'll live w it. =)ok now ima staring at e comp n nt noeing watta blogwoke up bout 1 2dae? cool huhi'v nvr been able to slp tis longwas so reluctant to gt offsheeshwat i found was tears in my eyeswet patches on my pillowi noe its dumb to blog bout tisi dun giv 2fucks who's reading tis anymorei miss jo so muchits finally hit me hard tis morningits regrets i feelyes true great horrible regretswe can nvr gt bc tgt. nvri so wanna run 2her hse now n ask her bclaughs. stupid i feel.giving her up n wanting it nowgave it a long tot no matter how i try n want things perfectour personalities juz aint compatibleits amazing how she fell 4anothershe mite think i lied tt i dinin actual fact i tried to.but e feelings juz dun cum easy 4any1 elsei miss da closeness we shareshe's always tellin me she'll b therebut now tt as i turn ardi c juz footsteps of her left behindeverytym i tire out its her shoulders which i wanna liebut now tt as i turn besidei c juz footsteps of her left behindeverytym my eyes r filled w tears its her i wanna hugbut now as i look for herits juz footsteps of her i'v foundshe's gone outtve ma sightouttve ma reachby whn i look inside my hrtshe'll always b therei can gt over jY..i can gt over her toois 5months all it takes?m i doing these all right?i made a mistake to nt hav asked jY backnow im doing it agnbut its me whom broke tis offn she mite b happier off nowtts juz all wat exactly went thru ma head e other tym roundmayb by then whn im done reflectingu'v already long 4gotten bout methen it mite b easier juz 4me to do so tooas i type n as i read thrutears juz cnt stop flowing outtve my eyesim juz sucha weakly i cnt denyi feel lyk crap everytym we fightbecuz its onli my fault she turned out lyk tti noe its useless to blame myself now4 i noe nth's gonna chng e fact now tt we'r apart.im soree my loveim in a state of nt noeing watta dopls 4giv me 4giving u upi onli wish 4u to b happier tis way.
its a boring entry i noe
skip it if u want. =)
its juz 4me to pour out wat i feel
soree.
6/05/2005 12:28:00 AM
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Friday, June 03, 2005
wheeeee...ytdnite was G.R.E.A.TLOL i'll nvr b able to do tis agnwenta sch n lessons were onli 2.5hrs??!?!?waited 4nana n carol den wenta slack at starbucks.gosh how nice cn tt b...=)) agn...e company was superblaughs.finally bought my black adidas top!!!wala wala=)) den went 4dinner w amy.weiting shuxin na doreen N nicole made a fool outtve ourselves in fish n co.laughsn theres tis waitress who's realli cutegahahalooks family but shant disturb herdorc trained w me to town whle she wenta meet her frensthen i met jieying after her classessheesh her's end soo late cn.so poor thingshopped ard town n mann she's crazy over chunky necklaceshahaha ok fine..she looks good in it anywayblahshe likes green AND purple too!! =))=Pp crapped lyk mad n she's juz toooooo silly!!!!laughscaught midnite(monsters-in-law) n pooled till 3am whn she needs 2head hm=)) the company was great..the plans were great too...*grinssent her hm n headed to nana's hsehaha yes im juz sooo freeeeeewheeeeee...went there unpreparedshowered n dosed off immediatelymann im tiredhaha n na's late 4work tis morning!!!!=XXwhle i head hm...so here i mblogging.lalalalalalsigh
but all these r gonna end 2nite
12am
laughs
but nvm
ima gng to meet jieying agn ltr!!!!!
=DDD she wanna shop agn
muahahaha
den mite juz head to da airport to pick them up in e nite
lalalalalala
fun funn fuunnnn!!! =DD
ytdnite's msg was crazyim soree if u'r reading tisjuz 4get abt the whle thing.
6/03/2005 09:09:00 PM
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
i feeeeel soooo good.im sooo lovin ma ccalaughs.setting aside da muscle cramps...im feelin so refreshed.darn..its been aeons since i last exercised.=)) ran lyk mad ard da sch juz now.hah den wenta learn da strokes to DBbut sadly i din getta use da poolhad overwhelming no. of girls joiningcoool...absolutely.=)) yiling's always ard. feels gd. =)she's ma bigg sista at cca. laughsour coach's a grt joker.juz da type 4grt motivationo goshsounds lyk they'v paid me to promote DBlaughs. im so thankfull to b in DB=DDDytdnite was superbwent shop at bugis w nana n doreen...ANDwe met up w JY n karen! =))shopped ard tgt 4awhle n we decided to go seperate wayswas supposed to play pool tgt w JY after shopping but she wanna head hmprolly another tym...after tt...was starbucks to slack!! =DDbeen longgggg since i last stayed till after closing!!!=DDD grt company..mstay..dorc..vic..tang guo..n MICHEAL!*lovesfun fun funnn crapped as usual n i had da privilige to wear vic's BLACK apron.MUAHAHA!did stupid "supervising" ard da storelaughs. poser huhsaw cheryl too..mann its been longshe fuckin flipped up ma shirt juz outside store lyk ttHAHA!juz becuz she lyks ma shirt n wanna check out ma boxerso watever.....laughs..nice meetin up w her thou. =))was soo shagged n did no shit hw ytd n dosed offtmr's shopping agneyed on tis adidas top since ytddamn..havta get it tmr by hook or by crookmuaha!n i bought a adidas "TIGHTS" ytd!4 DB but had mens so din use it juz now.laughstmr's finally da last dae of da week.phew...tis wk's been long.desperately needa catch sum slp.im juz njoying myself to da fullest these daes.*GRIN*dun b soo pissed off babeit tks tym to wanna get overit aint easy i noeu'v juz gotta try n tryu noe we'll all b ard 4u.so dun u giv up now.u realli did look gd 2daenice tann n dressing..im serious...y bother wat she said?DO wat u needa do thoui still havta giv u a piece of ma mindu aint tryin hard enuff....meetin her aint gettin u anywhrc'mon u noe it!buck up mann!u'r doing gd so far!i'll b here. hugs.whao long entry...damn enthu now lacnt help it. laughs.im juz soooo disappointed in *uu'v changed.
6/02/2005 08:57:00 AM
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i'll always remember that beautiful smile
i thought i saw a smile so familiar and warm that day
but only for awhile...
and im left alone in the crowd.
thou u'r gone,
im glad to have those memories of you and i kept deep inside me
the closeness we shared..
the times you put me to bed
the way u always cheer me up
those silly faces u allowed me to make on your face when im bored
i'll remember every part of it.
With all that,
im sure i'll be able to walk outtve that crowd n smile again.